Saturday, April 21, 2018

How I Like to Worship God

We are made to worship God. It is good for us, it is right. For a long time I felt like God was calling me to worship him more, and it seemed that if I did that it would sort out a whole lot of things. Not like all my problems would be fixed but I'd be in the right place to handle them. Because I would have been doing what was good for me. 

And I’d dearly love to be able to write about how I'd followed that call and I became great at worshipping God regularly. But I didn't. Why? Well I think partly sometimes the enemy is pretty committed to stopping us doing the very thing that is best for us and our relationship with God. Partly because I have two small children and it's tricky to get time to be still with God. But also partly because I'm not always great at making good choices. 

Paul talks about this struggle to do what we know is right in Romans:

"But I need something more! For if I know the law but still can’t keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don’t have what it takes. I can will it, but I can’t do it. I decide to do good, but I don’t really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don’t result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time." Romans 7:17-20 (The Message)

Does it matter? Well sure if I'd managed to spend more time with Jesus worshipping I’d be in a more intimate relationship with God and I might have been in a better place within myself because worshipping God is good for us. 

But does it matter to God? Well I know he likes us to worship him. But I also know he doesn't love me any less because I didn't do the thing he was calling me to do. It didn't make me any more or less worthy of his love, any more or less accepted by him. Because he loves me just because he does. He made me and he thinks I'm great, even when I'm not. Why? Because of Jesus. Because he is a God of grace. 

"But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5:8 (NIV)

So how do I like to worship God? I like to remember how he loves me, even when I don't deserve it at all. I like to thank him for his abundance of grace. I like to just call out to him, 'Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, I need  you Jesus' because I don't know what else to say sometimes and I'm desperate for him. 

I like to look at the sunset and see the beautiful colours, I like to walk along a beach and think about the bigness of the ocean and what that means for the bigness of the one who created it. I like to think about who he is, not who I am. Sometimes not think about what he's personally given me but just think about who he is.  He is amazing and so worthy of my praise and I long to worship him. And I'll endeavor to make time to do it more, to do it while I cook dinner or walk with my children or drive to work. But when I do worship him, I'll also worship him for loving me regardless of if I've managed to worship him for 30 whole minutes that day or if I got to putting my head on my pillow to go to sleep and realised that I'd been busy all day and forgot to pray in my busyness and then used my down time after my lovely children finally went to sleep to just switch off and look at Facebook instead of in prayer and bible study. No doubt I'd probably better rested and refreshed and in a better place to face the next day if I'd spent even a little of that down time connecting to God, but I sure am grateful that his love for me isn't dependent on that.   

Update:

I actually wrote this blog post two and half years ago and never got around to publishing it. It was interesting to find it recently and realise I’m actually still working on the same things. Thankfully God is still the same and he is still desperately in love with me despite my short-comings. Stay tuned for a new blog post soon about simple changes I’ve made to make more space for God in my daily life.  

I can do it if He helps me! 

“For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13 (NLT)

- Ali

 

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